BEADS

Someone from Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry (BSSM) prayed for me. She asked me if I do bracelets. I told her "I used to". I used to make bead bracelets when I was in primary school. I always wanted to do it, 'TIL NOW. But I don't have time: I am busy with my ministry and of course, physics.

Being a servant of God who is working out a campus ministry and establishing bible studies within the families in the church, and being an incoming graduating student of BS Physics, I find it hard to find a time to HAVE FUN: do things I enjoy such as making bracelets. Kinda weird huh?! If you know me, as one of the church leaders, you will not even think I want to have a time in making bracelets.

Then God reminded me of my childhood. These were His words: "I have always honored your desires. I know that it had been your dream to have a loving father. You always look on children having fun with their parents. I am your Father. I can go to the parks with you, we can watch a movie together. Make bracelets with you, laugh with you. You can always talk to Me about anything." Then I told Him, "Daddy, I don't want others to feel pain, the same hurts I had: not having a good family". He answered, "Go with them. You always spend time with other people and I'm proud of that. Your heart is always to love people and give your best not to disappoint them. I'm so proud of you".

These bead bracelets symbolize a bond. I have one and God has the other. I can make as many as I can and give it to people, people who needs attention and affection. This is my destiny, to love God and make other people know that they are loved.

Isn't it amazing?

Isn’t it amazing how a Man stays with you after He had known all your weaknesses?

Isn’t it amazing how a Man stays with you after you ran after other lovers and when you come back, all you need to say is “I’m sorry” and He’ll welcome you with loving arms? Isn’t it amazing that He’s beautiful and you’re not but He chose to love you?

Isn’t it amazing that you need to take much time to forget your past but He’s patient enough and He stays waiting for you to move on?

Tell me, isn’t that amazing?

He is my Lover.

He even gave His own life for me, for love’s sake.

Isn’t that amazing?

Isn’t it amazing to learn that when all your friends have forgotten you or people left you because you did something, someone will choose to stay with you?

Tell me, isn’t that amazing? Jesus loves me unconditionally. He chose me. He chose to love me.

Isn’t that amazing?

El-oh-vi-ih

“You cannot give what you do not have”. I grew up in an unhappy family. When I say “unhappy”, it’s a place where you see your parents fighting more constantly than loving. I saw them happy together sometimes but I can count it with my fingers (not including my toes). I was a mean kid. My grandma spoiled me. I go out with her. My Dad loves me, we walk together, we ran together, he carries me; so as my Mom. But we never did it together.

I thought this is really what life is for me, that this is my destiny. When I walk on the parks, seeing happy families, I envy. But what can I do, this is the life meant for me. Not until when I was 16, the turning point of my life. I found the love I was looking for, I understood and felt what it is really like to be loved.

December 26 of 2007, I met a Man named Jesus who loves me more than anything, a Man who loves me for what I am. In that place (church), I found a real family: people who are willing to help you overcome your hurts and pains. God helped me to forgive, to let go of things that had been grieving me for years. I was taught that Jesus is God manifested in flesh, born of the Spirit, of the virgin birth and gave His life for me. That He was punished for the forgiveness of my sins and the healing of my wounds.

Now I know how to love, my new family taught me, the Holy Spirit taught me. God rebuild my broken relationships with my parents, friends, and the people around me. Now I know that I can give love because I have it. And now I know my real destiny: to love people around me and fight for them to be freed of the yesterday’s wounds. Love them as Jesus loves me.

You? What are you fighting for? Is it worth fighting for? Are you certain of your destiny? “If you are not fighting for anything, then you are not capable of living”. I receive and now I choose to give.